my pledge to put down the cookie

"women, food and god" is a fairly new book and the latest approach oprah thinks can help women lose weight. the premise is that you have to recognize that you can live your best life with what you have in front of you and that our connections with food are based on our disconnection with our real life. ouch.
i was at a charity event on thursday night and i had a cookie. then i had another cookie. truth be told i wasn't hungry. i wasn't bored. but the presentations for the event were about to start and i was going to have to sit still for 30 minutes. i wouldn't be able to check my blackberry. i wouldn't be able to talk. i wouldn't be able to get up and walk around. i would have to be still. in that stillness there would be the chance that i'd think about what has been happening the past week - friend's being sick, stress at work, barry looking for a new career, the little time i spend with ethan during the week.
when did i become this self centered? when did i become this cynical? when did i become the one to complain? when did i become the one to sweat the small stuff? that's not who i want to be. that's not who i believe i am. that's not my best self. who i am is the hard working mom and wife and friend and daughter and sister and aunt and co-worker who loves life and sees the positive in every situation. i'm the one that helps to problem solve.
so, my pledge to myself is this...to sit still. to focus on what's actually in front of me and not think that every situation is about me or an opportunity to focus on me. to see the positive. to recognize the problems in life but recognize that there is so much joy. to radiate that joy to others around me. to enjoy those moments when i can be still and appreciate what's in front of me. to live my best life.